| First of all I would like to
congratulate my beautiful sis Moon for finding your counterpart and
some of my dear frds ....Mandy, Yankie, Jenny, and Kokel also for
finding your equillibrium ...... And i wish that you guys are happy to
have someone walking with you to the end of the road.....god bless you
guys !
As for me, not so lucky as all of you.....either I have too high of an
expectation or maybe I just don't know How to fall in love
anymore.....maybe you are right kokel .....being hurt would actually
make you protect yourself in a way you can't change...because you don't
want to get hurt once again......Because whenever I tired to be with
someone, either I completely loose the feeling because they did
something wrong, or its obstacles that made me quit and pull myself out
before its too late.....I have had some fun times with people that I
thought I was in love with ...but at the end i pull myself out of
it...right in the middle of a happy relationship...i leave without
saying goodbye.....what the fuck is wrong with me? ......and i don't
know why i did that ......aiiii ....its sooo fustrating .......maybe
its hard to find any equillibrium and thats part of life......And maybe
god wants me to meet a few wrong people before accepting the new one,
so i know how to cherish it when it arrives.....but i am sick and tired
of this test.....why i can't i be normal and love someone and be like
everyone else.....what couples do.....what relationship should mean.....
but aiii i think i need sometime myself.....to re-evaluate myself ...so
i don't hurt anyone and i don't hurt myself.....so I think from now
on....i'll re-evaluate myself .....before i go search for my
equillibrium .....
~()~
Second Home
As for Siu Man, Terry, Kokel, Moon, Yankie, Mandy, Pjai, Jenny, Jeffery and Jacky.....even
i didn't find my equillibrium....I always had you by myside....with all
the support and love.....e ...and you guys will always be the first
....no matter what ! ..
I hope second home will come back soon
~()~
Things I want to accomplish for 2007:
Graduate with (B.Sc) Molecular Biology and Biochemistry Degree by August
Graduate with (B.ASc) Communications Minor by August
Complete RCMP Auxiliary Training
Complete Justice Institute Diploma Course in Policing
Complete Take Down Training with Riverrock
Get into BCIT Department of Forensics (BC Criminal Justice)
Find my Equillibrium.....
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| To be Loved, by: Denise Rick
I can see your face everywhere I go
But everywhere is nowhere without you,
what seemed to be like days
was just a moment in time
But it meant the world to me cuz i knew
What ive been searching for all of my life
I had it right here-in front of my eyes
What ive wished for was nothing compared
to what i recieved-when you are here with me
And if you'l never come back
and today was all that we had
and if i won't see tomorrow with you
in my arms it won't matter because
now i know what its like to be loved
My
you're so far away but i feel you so near
its like you never left me-never say goodbye
i can hear your voice in the ground
i can feel you touch me right now
i can see you smile when i close my eyes
and i hold on to that every night
to help me understand-when i ask myself why
of all the people out there
you to to be with me to share all love and sorrows
and if you never come back
and today was all that we had
and if i won't se tomorrow with you
in my arms it won't matter because
now i know what its like to be loved
what a beautiful thing
to feel your love within
like a child that see the sunshine on the first day of spring
just to know its true
there is someone like you
who can make me believe
there is nothing i can't do
if you'll never come back
and today was all that we had
and if i won't see - tomorrow with you
in my arms it won't matter because
now i know what it's like
to be loved...
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